random non related photos to start the post. I love this little girl so so much! every stage she enters, I think it’s the cutest and most fun, but each one just supercedes the previous! not sure how that’s possible but I’m kinda sure this is the peak alr 😂😂😂 a few more years before she hits the annoying stage but I pray she’ll always find favor with people she comes into contact with (;
so anyways tonight J and I were talking about insecurities and thinking deeper, I realized it’s once again linked to love. insecurities come about because of lack of love, or lack of an understanding of how loved you are.
the harder you strive to cover up your insecurities, the more obvious they are to the people around you. it doesn’t even take someone close to recognize those insecurities in you.
the fact that you’re trying to prove yourself is because you want acceptance, and ultimately love. and striving is just showing people that you think you don’t have that love you need. if you think about it, that’s exactly what the brother of the prodigal son went through.
seeing what his father did for the good-for-nothing younger brother, he exclaimed ‘walau eh I did so much for you and I get back nothing!’. aha, all these years he’s been trying to prove something to deserve his father’s love. it’s not that his father didn’t love him; he just didn’t recognize the love. he was insecure in who he is and had to work hard to be the son he thinks his father would approve of. oh my that’s just sad.
but yet so many of us are like that. we work hard to win God’s love when we already have it. we work hard to win acceptance from others because we don’t know we alr have acceptance from the One who truly matters.
it all boils down to love. the fundamental of life is love. God is love. if we ignore this, we search for acceptance that will never satisfy, we search for love that will never fulfill.
Ps P talks about a life of rest all the time. it’s not about sitting there doing nothing. when you’re able to live life without striving, that’s rest. when you flow with the rhythm of grace, that’s rest. when you are settled from deep within your soul, that’s rest. we accept the love we think we deserve. but God gives us the love we don’t deserve. how can we then accept this love from God? when we stop looking at ourselves and start looking at God. when we shift our focus to Him and be Jesus-occupied, we can then allow that love into our hearts and lives and that changes the dynamics of how we live life.
not the best writer and not sure if I accurately conveyed what I wanted to say, but this is sth that really resonates in my heart and I believe someone reading this needs to hear this (:
Jesus loves you, more than anyone else can and will.
for such a time as this. 
Making little kids smile is one of the best thing one can do for the future generation. You make them realize that this world is still a very beautiful place to live. :)